From the past few weeks I felt completely lost and I have no idea why. I feel like I have no purpose to live which I obviously do, I know and I am aware that I do. It's just that I feel like I am not being myself right now. Have you guys ever get this kind of feeling? Because I do. I kept thinking why would this kind of thing happen to me? Have I not been with ppl that would bring the best of me? As I recall, I've been surrounding myself with those kind of ppl from the past few weeks, so what is the real problem here? This feeling is not mutual and it's fucking confusing.
It all started last week where I had to accompany my sister to get something from MPH Bookstores. As she was searching for her thing, I went wandered around from my favourite category of bookshelves, where I used to buy my reading material from that shelf. See that word, USED TO! As I staring at those books suddenly my train of thoughts decided to cross my mind. I mumbled "wait a sec, when was the last time I bought my books from this shelf", 6 MONTHS AGO! I was like oh shitz! What happened to me? Why I wouldn't buy any books no more. That is like my favourite thing on earth, to read books and when I'm done I kept buying more books to read but now it's been months since I actually bought a book to read on my free time. It used to be my passion. I kept wondering why why why...
So I told my best friend about this, all of this. I said to her "i really need to get away". She was like "what do you mean by get away?". I was thinking I should probably need to escape from reality for a while, just to find myself. Just going to some places, alone without anyone. Bring my books maybe, have some quality time to myself, hibernating from ppl, and all kinds of complicated stuffs. Maybe not now but someday I will definitely do this. I just need to find the perfect time.
From the past few weeks I felt completely lost and I have no idea why. I feel like I have no purpose to live which I obviously do, I know and I am aware that I do. It's just that I feel like I am not being myself right now. Have you guys ever get this kind of feeling? Because I do. I kept thinking why would this kind of thing happen to me? Have I not been with ppl that would bring the best of me? As I recall, I've been surrounding myself with those kind of ppl from the past few weeks, so what is the real problem here? This feeling is not mutual and it's fucking confusing.
It all started last week where I had to accompany my sister to get something from MPH Bookstores. As she was searching for her thing, I went wandered around from my favourite category of bookshelves, where I used to buy my reading material from that shelf. See that word, USED TO! As I staring at those books suddenly my train of thoughts decided to cross my mind. I mumbled "wait a sec, when was the last time I bought my books from this shelf", 6 MONTHS AGO! I was like oh shitz! What happened to me? Why I wouldn't buy any books no more. That is like my favourite thing on earth, to read books and when I'm done I kept buying more books to read but now it's been months since I actually bought a book to read on my free time. It used to be my passion. I kept wondering why why why...
So I told my best friend about this, all of this. I said to her "i really need to get away". She was like "what do you mean by get away?". I was thinking I should probably need to escape from reality for a while, just to find myself. Just going to some places, alone without anyone. Bring my books maybe, have some quality time to myself, hibernating from ppl, and all kinds of complicated stuffs. Maybe not now but someday I will definitely do this. I just need to find the perfect time.
