The idea of seeing you with him always gets me emotionally sad. But what I feel is not yr concern I know. This post is just me expressing my feelings tho this blog is the only way I feel okay to say anything, this is sort of my comfort place. I can act happy, yes in front you but it cut me so deep inside. I will just keep smiling, maybe struggling to find reasons to stay happy in front of you but yeah how can I do that right if I had to witness you so happy with him, it's just making me sad. I am happy for you don't get me wrong yes I do. You are so happy, maybe happier I can tell. Told a friend about it and she said one day I'll feel it too. Until then I would just smile to hide the truth but I really do hope you know and I hope I showed you enough that I will always be happier when I'm with you. I can say he's a lucky guy, maybe he deserves you more than I do right. You guys happened too fast for me I thought because I am still so in love with you. But I should not had this feelings with you earlier, I blame myself for this :(.
The idea of seeing you with him always gets me emotionally sad. But what I feel is not yr concern I know. This post is just me expressing my feelings tho this blog is the only way I feel okay to say anything, this is sort of my comfort place. I can act happy, yes in front you but it cut me so deep inside. I will just keep smiling, maybe struggling to find reasons to stay happy in front of you but yeah how can I do that right if I had to witness you so happy with him, it's just making me sad. I am happy for you don't get me wrong yes I do. You are so happy, maybe happier I can tell. Told a friend about it and she said one day I'll feel it too. Until then I would just smile to hide the truth but I really do hope you know and I hope I showed you enough that I will always be happier when I'm with you. I can say he's a lucky guy, maybe he deserves you more than I do right. You guys happened too fast for me I thought because I am still so in love with you. But I should not had this feelings with you earlier, I blame myself for this :(.
