i would like to believe that life is funny. idk how that idea could ended up in a misfit guy's mind like me but then, it did. how i like to reflect myself everytime and today i realized it's been one year since i entered college. whooshhh oh god damn how did time can flies so fast like a lightning. before all this happened i always thought to myself i will never end up in college but i sure did now. always also thought i would never get any friends but then, i have tons of humans i love there now. but like i said life is a funny thing. sometimes it gives you a whole lot of reasons not to feel anything about it but sometimes you ended up thinking abt it everytime u go to sleep. i also don't know how could i survive all this. there are thousand types of ppl i met and somehow some of them had change my perspective towards a lot of things. tried new things. i like it being here. but that doesn't mean i dont have things i don't like. all of these ppl i met made me realize that i should be thankful more. reflecting myself on these people i learned that there's nothing wrong fr having less, we can wait for more.
there are also people i met that i assumed could stick with me throughout my years in college. ppl who i can count on anything. but then they left....just like that without having to worry of how i felt. no im not being a judgmental or stuffs but it's just seems unfair how we spent our life together almost seeing each other every day and ended up not talking to each other anymore. but thats the funny part. its funny how life gives me this person to observe him right to know that he's leaving any ways. how my other friends view him as now is he's would just sneak out from our life. but i'd like to have the idea that somehow sometimes the ppl who you trust the most doesn't mean they can't backed up from our lives. that's just it i think that is human nature. how we should not judge them for being themselves and instead just move on, forgetting the idea that he left.
have u ever caught yrself smiling in the middle of happy moments but the moments are not the reason u smiling? i did. in the middle of those i caught myself smiling fr no reason. not bcause im happy with the moments but turns out that i was smiling for knowing i made it so far to be in that place, to be surrounded by beautiful human beings, to actually feel how some ppl been talking abt life this whole time. feeling grateful of how my life turns out right now and having the thought that 10 years ago me would be so proud of my achievements now. how my dreams are building up. my goals are setting up. these kind of things that make me smile like an idiot for no apparent reason. i'd like someone to capture me while i was having that time of my life so i can observe and reflect like i was smiling for this whole time because i am strong. strong enough to end up in the place where i was dream of the whole time. that's why i never regret my mistakes. sometimes im glad it all happened because that is my kind of way knowing i have experience so many stuffs that make me wiser to become the person i am today.
i would like to believe that life is funny. idk how that idea could ended up in a misfit guy's mind like me but then, it did. how i like to reflect myself everytime and today i realized it's been one year since i entered college. whooshhh oh god damn how did time can flies so fast like a lightning. before all this happened i always thought to myself i will never end up in college but i sure did now. always also thought i would never get any friends but then, i have tons of humans i love there now. but like i said life is a funny thing. sometimes it gives you a whole lot of reasons not to feel anything about it but sometimes you ended up thinking abt it everytime u go to sleep. i also don't know how could i survive all this. there are thousand types of ppl i met and somehow some of them had change my perspective towards a lot of things. tried new things. i like it being here. but that doesn't mean i dont have things i don't like. all of these ppl i met made me realize that i should be thankful more. reflecting myself on these people i learned that there's nothing wrong fr having less, we can wait for more.
there are also people i met that i assumed could stick with me throughout my years in college. ppl who i can count on anything. but then they left....just like that without having to worry of how i felt. no im not being a judgmental or stuffs but it's just seems unfair how we spent our life together almost seeing each other every day and ended up not talking to each other anymore. but thats the funny part. its funny how life gives me this person to observe him right to know that he's leaving any ways. how my other friends view him as now is he's would just sneak out from our life. but i'd like to have the idea that somehow sometimes the ppl who you trust the most doesn't mean they can't backed up from our lives. that's just it i think that is human nature. how we should not judge them for being themselves and instead just move on, forgetting the idea that he left.
have u ever caught yrself smiling in the middle of happy moments but the moments are not the reason u smiling? i did. in the middle of those i caught myself smiling fr no reason. not bcause im happy with the moments but turns out that i was smiling for knowing i made it so far to be in that place, to be surrounded by beautiful human beings, to actually feel how some ppl been talking abt life this whole time. feeling grateful of how my life turns out right now and having the thought that 10 years ago me would be so proud of my achievements now. how my dreams are building up. my goals are setting up. these kind of things that make me smile like an idiot for no apparent reason. i'd like someone to capture me while i was having that time of my life so i can observe and reflect like i was smiling for this whole time because i am strong. strong enough to end up in the place where i was dream of the whole time. that's why i never regret my mistakes. sometimes im glad it all happened because that is my kind of way knowing i have experience so many stuffs that make me wiser to become the person i am today.
